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Congratulations to one of the Royal family for having a backbone. Having seen the interview tonight, he seems switched on to what does really happen in the frontline, rather than just a publicity campaign.

What I find amuzing though is the vast collection of medals that the Royal family have. In their number ones they seem to have more badges than a boy scout.

Oh one slept last night without ones teddy bear, god damm heres a medal, one didn’t have ones caviar for dinner last night, well god damm heres another medal.

Apart from Prince Andrew and now Harry, oh and not forgetting old Prince Phillip himself, what service have they seen to actually warrant these medals?

As an ex serving RAF person, I had to eat in the forces canteen, where the hell are my medals? We had to work 12 hour shifts during the Gulf war 1990 where the hell are our medals for that, or the medals for the people who died of Gulf war syndrome?

What about those that got killed by friendly fire from the americans? Approx a third of our troops in the Gulf got killed by americans, and the same shit is happening in overseas operations today.

Isn’t it about time we stopped the bullshit thinking that fighting in Iraq, Afghanistan will stop terrorism, because it will not.

Everyone hates americans because they want to take over the World, they tell other countries, how to live their lives, even though they have lived that way for thousands of years, much longer than america has ever been a country.

They deem themselves above the law, when the United Nations voted against going to war with Iraq and the poodle blair followed.

The people that we are trying to fight are like lemmings, one falls off a cliff and another one takes it’s place. Unless you kill the whole population, then because of the oppression shown by america and Great Britain, then they are going to hate us for generations and generations more, so we shall be fighting until they have nuclear weapons, and end up using them.

Then who are the real winners then Mr bush?

What the World really needs is our troops withdrawn from the warzones, diplomatic efforts to say ok you have committed crimes against our society and we have commited crimes against your society.

We shall kiss and make up, and we shall not meddle in each others affairs, BUT if there is one hint of violence against us then we shall retaliate.

 The nuclear bomb is often refered to as the peace keeper, but who’s hands do you really think they are safe in?

Personally I don’t think that I would like some countries to have them, but then I honestly do not like the fact that america has them.

The first nuclear bomb was used by america, and it probaly won’t be the last time that a nuclear weapon gets used, and I reckon that we shall see this in our lifetime, give it 30 years and we shall see another bomb being dropped.

Once this escalates out of control, then we shall be heading for all out war.

Kill the father of a son, and the son will come back for revenge, for though he is not old enough to understand now, the brainwashing is fuelled by the son loseing his father at the hand of Westerners.

Final words on this, as I am babbling now, but in certain countries if you steal food, then you have your hand chopped off, in america, if you steal food more than three times, you get life inprisonment.

Day four sees pretty much the same events as before. He was late in waking up and would have just laid on the bed all day if left to his own devices.

Although he has eaten today, it was because of the fact that I fed him upstairs, otherwise I do not think that he would have bothered, also had to give him a lift down the stairs again just to goto toilet.

So in some respects, there is still no major change, the only promising sign today is that he has rolled on his back and growled, which he always used to do before.

Is this a brief sign that he is slowly getting better, or is it just a small part of him that still remains. It is the brief signs that makes the decision harder to put him to sleep or not.

On one hand because he isn’t really suffering should he be given longer to see if he makes more of a recovery or do I think that he hasnt got much of a life that it would be kinder just to say goodbye.

One day could mean the difference between recovery and sliding even more.

 Still a few days worth of pills left yet, then need to make the decision of another week, or peace.

According to the British Embassy today, Pakistan has annouced that they are sending two million aid workers to the UK to help with the earthquake relief.

When a British Consoluate offical asked, isn’t that a lot of people to send? The Pakistani Embassy said not for our English friends.

So far the British Embassy have found no return visa’s for the aid workers, and instead of wide spread looting as was predicated, there has been a spate of new corner shops being built.

We shall have more on this story as a new shop opens.

Well it is now Wednesday 11:45 and so far no movement from Murphy. The more movement he makes, the more pain he seems to be in. Even moving on a soft bed he starts whincing.

I keep going in there with courage to move him to take him to toilet but don’t have the heart to lift him up when he backs away a bit and I know that he must be suffering with some pain.

The heart medication doesnt seem to be working, infact it seems to be making him worse, at least before he was taking these tablets, he could move, now he just stays still most of the time.

At the moment he could do his needs on the bed, and I wouldn’t care, a mattress can easily be replaced, but a friend cannot.

In some respects, I hope that he does pass away in his sleep, at least that means that I do not have to make the decision for him, at the moment though the decision looks as if he does need to be put to sleep.

I am trying to give him as much time as possible to recover, but knowing that he is starting to feel pain when  he moves, makes me think about playing god sooner than I was hopeing for.

Last night I made up my mind to keep trying the tablets for as long as possible in the hope that this would work, this morning I am realising that this might not be enough, and the best option would be to let him sleep with some dignity.

I was going to have him groomed before we made that final trip to the vets, but I have since thought that if he can hardly stand up now, having him go through the ordeal of a clip would be too much for him to bear, so have cancelled that idea.

Why is it so easy to say goodbye to a human compared to what it is to an animal? When my Grandad passed away, my nan went down hill, and just wanted to give up basically, two and a half years later, she had passed away, when I had the phone call I knew that she had gone, and I walked from where I was living at the time to the nursing home, crying for most of the time, and then when I saw a person in front of me, it would be a brave face and wipe away the tears and the effects of crying and rushing past until I was alone again and could release more.

When seeing my nan laying there, she looked at peace and her suffering had gone, I wasn’t given the oppotunity of seeing my grandad before he was buried which I hated.

I know that once I go into that vets, then like the breakdown of a relationship, something or someone is missing from your side. The flat is already silent and I would give anything to hear him bark or start whimpering for food, even though he might have been fed ages ago, or see him shagging the floor growling as he does.

I have put dogs to sleep before but none have really affected me as much as this, mainly because Murphy became my dog, even though he wasn’t intended for me, he was a present for my nan, but I ended up taking him for walks and looking after him.

He was my sanity, my rock, the thing that made me wake up in the morning and now he is all but gone, what happens next?

Following our previous post of an Earth Tremor hitting Warrington, we are hearing reports that an Earth Quake has hit Market Rasen in Lincolnshire. Warrington is around 100 miles away from Market Rasen, and an Earth Quake measuring 4.7 is major in the UK.

There has been similar size quakes in the UK, a 4.8 Earth Quake was reported on 23rd of September 2002 in Dudley, Birmingham. The force of the quake was felt in Wales.

There has been other tremors in Manchester, but none of this scale.

The 1906 San Francisco earth quake was from 7.7 to 8.3 and we have had a couple of Earth quakes half of this size.

Are we also heading for a major Earth quake?

An Earth tremor struck this morning at 1am 27th febuary according to local sources, the tremor has been reported to have been felt upto 25 miles away.

Our source who has said that he has never really felt them before, had his cabinets shaking and items falling onto the floor.

Are Earth tremors going to become a more common place in the UK?

If so are we doing more damage to our planet than just greenhouse gases?

Well it is now Tuesday and yesterday I took my dog Murphy to the vets and instead of having him put to sleep, I ended up with some heart pills for him.

It is now 11:44 at the time of writing this and he has made no effort to goto the toilet or to go and eat some food. This is reasonably unlike Murphy, but I hope that when he does need to go, at least he makes the effort to let me know.

The worse thing is that I was planning to go into town today and having to leave him on his own is a daunting thought, I know that he will be ok, but I felt guilty leaving him when he was in full spirts, but now that he’s dyeing then it’s even worse.

Already in some respects it feels as if he is no longer with me, all what I see is his body but his soul and spirit has gone, there is no life, no shagging his blanket, no rolling around the floor because hes just had something to eat or that hes happy.

 Theres no bonding where I would growl at him and he would go crazy and start running about the place.

Just tried walking him to the shops, we got out of the door and he could hardly make it down the two front steps, and could’t really move any further, this is the first time in 13 years that he hasnt been able to walk to the shops, so is very distressing to see.

If he is still like this during the week, then he cannot really go on like this. In some respects I feel like taking him down now but I shall see if the heart tablets make some difference, but I honestly do not think that they will.

We have now set up a silent tribute to Jill Dando. As a Westonian, I felt saddened that there was no permant memorial to her. The website is a personal project that will take time to build up, but it will be completed.

The Jill Dando website is a non commercial website, and no adverts or other commercial ventures will be launched. The website is paid for from private money and will never be sold for personal gains.

At first we was going to launch with the attention of the press, but after much consideration, as Jill was mainly a private person, then a silent tribute was how we wanted to go.

We mourn for one of own, Jill loved Weston super Mare, and her memories. It was a sad and a tragic loss and we hope that in the end we can build up a website that will celebrate her life and her loves.

God bless Jill.

You can pay your respects at www.jilldando.co.uk

As I write this, my friend of 13 years is sitting on the stairs hardly able to walk and needs to be carried to the toilet and back. I knew that the end had to come one day, but has only been the past couple of days that things have become at such a stage that I am actually thinking of having him put to sleep.

Do I carry on and let him just die of natural causes and carry him to the toilet for the rest of his life, or do I go down the path of expensive treatments that might make him better for 2 minutes or do I play God and have his life taken away from him.

I know that I would keep him alive for the rest of my life and then we would go together, but I know this is probaly the end for him, and tomorrow might be our last day.

Well just had my jacket and shoes on and he decides that he wants to hobble down the stairs to goto the shops, so we hobble, bit of light rain but didn’t have the heart to say no to him, which really confuses me now, do you actually let go and say goodbye if he’s still got a tiny part of him left inside of him, or do you allow him to pass away in his own time, making small scarfices of carrying him as much as possible.

Death is never really easy, but I think in some respects it is easier to let a human being go, rather than an animal, as at least the human being can say that they are in pain or not, a dog remains that faithful friend until the last.

Well it is now 03:47am on Monday 25th of Febuary and thought I would update this, it seemed that he was slowly making a recovery, but sadly this doesn’t seem to be the case, upon hearing a whimper, I thought that he needed to be carried down the stairs to goto toilet, but he was asleep and when I went to him, I could hear his heart beat as loud as anything, I had changed my mind about taking him to the vets, but upon hearing his heart, I have now got to take him. Hopefully the vet will be able to do something for him, but I think this is the last time that we shall be together.

I know that it is me, that wants him to live for as long as possible, but deep down I know that keeping him alive just for me, if he is suffering is cruel of me. I hope that the vets say that something can be done, or otherwise I will be mourning my faithful friend.

I had always imagined when he passed away that I would take his body somewhere and bury him so that I could visit, but I do not know if I could do that now. I did plan to bury him in the back garden but that is too shallow, and if he is gone tomorrow, then I know that I do not want to stay here anymore.

Although I love Weston super Mare with all of my heart, seeing another that I love die, is just too much to bare, too many good and bad memories are here now, and if I don’t get out then I will probaly become worse than I am now.

Awaiting